No Joy

[Tristen Cox]

No joy Sat Sep 17, 2005 8:59 pm

Anything I say can and will be held against me aye?

I deleted the trouble makers. Whether they came back they can not be
what they once were and not even the owner can merge their stupid
posts back together.

A big **** you Tristen for all my efforts and hard work that made that
place all it is, well was. These "trolls" that some have sided with as
friends were my friends when we all started there. I stood up for them
as well as the rest of the forum. I did this for them not myself.

These are the very same people who turned on me and WILL destroy that
forum all because I put my foot down for the good of all and removed
one of them. I wanted them all gone but there was simply not enough of
those in power thinking for the good of the people that could also be
on 24/7 watch to eliminate these assholes permanently.

After fifteen months I think I know my ****. I did more than any one
person could have done or should have had to do. Why? Cause I cared
about the people. Because for many it's their first and perhaps only
outlet where they finally mght feel comfortable or wanted.

I did not abandon my thousands yes thousands of friends there. However
I could do no more without harming such a great place. I made a
promise to not hurt the forum. I'm only one person. I could no longer
keep that promise. So my last action was to make a statement with the
"Trolls" showing those without the blinkers over there eyes the true
problem. Some may take their side but that's not why people came
there. They didn't come there to take sides or debate everything. They
didn't come there for personal power. They didn't come there to
overthrow the powers that be.

They came there looking for acceptance with like minded people. To
know they weren't alone in the world.

No matter what had happened nothing would have ever been the same. And
that place will die now to the way it was. No more comfort. No peace.
No where to hide from constantly watching over your shoulder.

The only way it will work is the people need to take it back. No
moderator, no law will ever regain it as long as the "trolls" are
there. Don't listen to me, ignore me. But you already feel it happening.

There was nothing left to do for me. I have given my life to that
place, to my friends, and to total strangers.

WHAT THE **** HAVE THESE TROLLS DONE??????????

Now they can turn on each other and everyone else, which they will
inevitably. I am not coming back. Those that are true and know me know
where to find me. I will miss the literally hundreds of friends I knew
there on a daily basis, and hopefully they will not soon forget all
that I stood for.

Think what you like about me, my essence there speaks for itself and
can never be erased.

Did anyone notice I didn't delete Sherlyn? Wonder why that is huh.
It's called honor. She only sided cause of Kew and these friends she
made, otherwise would never have got involved. Notice I didn't
threaten to leave or start in the war. I even terminated myself. And
yes I was in tears.

Julie has been the best damn moderator and friend from begining to
end. She volunteered to be deleted and left with me willingly. It has
been a great honor to work beside her and for that forum. However we
both gave far too much of ourselves and could give no more. We have to
live too. We're proud of the job we did. We never got paid and
expected no gratitude, except to be a part of something so good.

Our work there is done, time to move on. I will never forget what a
blessing it was for me.

[Julie]

Haven't really got anything to add to what Tristen has already said
in her initial post other than to say I was and am behind her 100%
in the actions taken yestaerday, whatever might be said there about
Tristen by the s***s (Oh wait this is Lavender, ****s she did not do
this lightly and certainly not on her own, I was with her all the
way and my deletion was my decision.

After the event yeasterday I watched for a while as some of those
deleted registered again and straight away mustered together to
start threads in the Lounge area about the events of the day, still
going on now as I type this I might add. Off course a long time
banned member is also there now adding their contribution.

Well with these trolls being allowed this freedom and no real secure
way of silencing them the Crossdressers.com we all knew and came to
love is on the pathway of decline, Chrissie I hope on seeing you are
staying for a while as you have made many new friends there that
things are not too painful for you.

As for me, well I awoke this morning and for the first time in ages
I was able to relax and take my time, read papers and watch TV for
instance was something I haven't done for months. There was no
urgency anymore to get to the forum to straighten out overnight
posts etc.

Eventually I shall find another forum somwhere out in www land where
I can settle as an ordinary member without the additional work of
being a Moderator, better still wouldn't it be good to start a small
Yahoo forum similar to this layout?

For now I am going to be here more often as I have neglected this
place due to my commitment there. I will always be able to be
contacted on Yahoo, I had too many friends there to just walk away
and not be contacted. Also I will now have time to pay attention to
my pending unemployment status which will kick in at the end of this
month.

Lastly for now just to say thanks for the support.

Love Julie

[Shinya]

I'm not totaly sure what has just happened. But, just from this
alone right here is enough to make me want to get on the forum and
pull all my own stuff off of there.

I never felt right about the place , with all the undertones that
were tossed about the place like coffee costers in a old maides
home.

Tristen, you did a fine job there and that is more to the point way
I hung in there on that forum. You did what you needed to do,
instead of sitting on the fence worrying what some one was going to
say about it. It was a major undertakeing by you and you did alright.

Now without a good admin there I'm sure it will turn into a panty
fest of some kind for the creeps to pour into. This is mostly likely
the sadest part of you taken your leave of your post.

It was a good run, while it lasted. To bad the name of the site is
so tightly connected to the word crossdresser.

One step forward , two steps back.

We all have our things. These have there place. When those of us
impose our own will upon others , will interfear with our race.

I was born naked and cold to a hostile world, and that makes me just
as human as the rest.